It's Really NO Big Deal

It's not a big deal, it's really not, but the Lord must have knew I needed a jump start this morning because today has been full of this sort of mishaps.

Today was full of good intentions, and yet I feel like it's been just a trial filled day. Phone calls coming in that made my heart heavy and me sitting on the couch thinking, praying and dwelling too long on things I absolutely can't change. In fact, they aren't mine to change at all.

I think letting go and truly trusting that God will fix things is still one of the hardest lessons for me to learn. Especially, when it comes to my children. I want to fix things! I want to put bandaids on things. I want to pour out my infinite wisdom upon them and watch them eat it up like it was a giant hot plate of spaghetti, but more times than not it doesn't happen that way. Often times I see the plate pushed away in stubborn rebellion.

I try to console myself with who I was once upon a time. That I made it. I grew. I had to learn lessons outside of my parents. They were good for me. I wonder if my parents felt as much frustration at times as I have felt. Oh wait...there was that one time...and that other time...okay yes they did! This actually gives me hope and a little peace.

Anyway...as I was making lunch today for the 4 boys I grabbed the box of angel hair pasta out of the pantry and the noodles sprayed all over the floor. I had to actually pause and take a breath and remind myself that this is NO big deal. Keep on going...it's life....the endless chant, today, that keeps running through my head.