That is the question.
I have been doing this for over 2 years now. There are seasons of my life that I pause and reconsider how important it is to me, only to find myself logging on and writing another post. When I first got started I didn't think anyone would read it, and in someways I liked that. I was free to type whatever, and to have no judgements passed on. I knew that people that I didn't know would read it, but I didn't care about their opinions so much. However, as time has went on and people began to catch wind of my blogging and other's blogs it changed the landscape of blogging for me. All of a sudden I would show up at church get-togethers and people would mention things or stories to me about my life that only my blog could have revealed. It was sort of strange, but I also found that it opened up doors of friendship that otherwise wouldn't have been opened. So there were pros and cons to it, as there is to anything in life. Because of this I have weighed in my mind whether I wanted to know who was reading me, or whether I should keep a close eye on who is checking out my blog through my site meter. I figured it was better to know and to be educated about it than not. Again it effected my blogging. I mean I have never wanted to use the blogging world as an outlet to divulge deep dark secrets, (that would be ridiculous). Not that I have any REAL deep dark secrets amongst my friends anyway. Most people in my church-circle know my life, even the uglies. *sigh* So why do I continue to blog? That truly is THE question; one I ask myself regularly. Blogging has encouraged me to put things in perspective before I begin to taint it with emotions. What I mean to say is that sometimes we FEEL something, but once you work your way through the emotions of it you put it into a healthy perspective. Blogging does that for me. I want to be real. I don't want to give an emotional rant that later, after some deliberation, I regret, because that is normally what happens with rants. I want to have a healthy, realistic view of my life and how I truly feel about it.
So I blog to share with myself, my family, and the world who I am. I have a one-time journey in this world. Thirty-seven years has blazed by. My childhood almost feels like a dream, rather than true experiences anymore. It all goes by so fast. I think back on when River was a baby and I only remember basic relevant moments of time. I don't remember what he looked like throughout every stage of his life without looking back on pictures. I may have forgotten he wore that Osh Kosh B' Gosh outfit when he was learning to crawl, except I either saw it in a photograph, or I wrote it down somewhere. There just isn't enough space in this brain for all the sweet details of my life, without something conjuring it up for me. It makes me sad that my brain works like that, but I have learned to accept that about myself, and therefore I blog. I blog to remember. I blog to be accountable. I blog to share. I blog, therefore I am.....hehehe
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