Wednesday, May 06, 2009

Blog Intentions

All that I've wanted to do these last few mornings is stay in bed, but yet here I am sitting on the couch at 6:30am. I hesitated to blog this morning, wondering if I should keep my silence, wondering if I should set my blog to private, wondering how things could be so easily misinterpreted.

"Why do I blog" is the question that keeps rising to the surface of my mind. What are my intentions? It is so simple and clear, the answer bobs to the surface as fast as the question before it. I blog for me. I don't blog for money. I don't blog to persuade people. I don't blog to be some one I'm not. I blog to keep a journal of my thoughts and experiences. I hope to make a three-ring binder of all my entries for my family about my family. I don't want to forget what it was like (REALLY like) to be a mom. I want my boys and their children to know me, and to understand why Den and I are who we are today. I don't write gratitude posts insincerely. That is me. That is how I truly feel, and in writing down these emotions and rereading them later it motivates me to keep moving forward. These entries lay the foundation of my life.

My blog experience has been so positive. So positive that I've kept blogging for three years now. That is a huge accomplishment for me; for anyone. When I've contemplated closing my blog Den protests. He LOVES it! He reads it daily. In some ways it's my private message of "I love you" to him; reminding him what he is working so hard for everyday. Opening my heart and my eyes to a moment that he may not have been able to share with me, and trying to put them into words for him. In doing so, I am letting you all be a part of that. The encouraging comments and emails bless me and make me smile. They truly warm my heart. However, the negative ones are so surprising and disheartening. In fact, I can count them on one hand. I have a difficult time understanding the motive. If someone is offended or saddened by what I say I immediately go back to reread my post. Again, never finding any ill intent in them. I'm not sending out any hidden messages or have the intention of hurting someone.

I would hope that with this understanding that you would read my blog with the purpose that it is intended for. If it makes you smile continue on, if not, skip it and find one that does. Life is too short to be miserable.

11 comments:

Tiffany said...

I'm sorry you've gotten some negative comments =(. I can't imagine why anyone would get offended. The only time i've been some what saddened by anything on here is when you've written about the brethren there and the sweet fellowship you have. I wish i had a close relationship with the brethren there like i do with some in other places. But perhaps someday i will =).

Love and prayers,

Sis.Tiffany

Kathy said...

keep it up! I love your blog and I agree with your reason for doing it. Thank you for sharing your life with us.

Lori&Kevin said...

Amen! Although, I am confused as to how YOU could get negative comments!! Your posts are so inspiring to me. I am always uplifted after reading. Unfortunately, some people are just negative no matter what I guess. All we can do is keep shining our light! :-) If you ever do go private, you better send me the info to get in or I'll be sad! ha!

Sis Stubby said...

I admire you so much.I love to read your blogs.I thank you for sharing your life & your familys life with us.It has been an uplift to me.

Where is my Brain said...

I defiently enjoy sharing with your blog and have laughted many a time and didn't notice any negativity (which being humans that we are is understandable) So don't fret, I for one have received many a smile and encouragement and many things from reading your blogs, so keep it up!!!! They have been inspiring lots of times to me! Sis. TAmmy EASTer

skylene said...

I enjoy your additions to my little blogging world. Expecially since you have little ones that are doing things I can so relate to!

meNmykids said...

Many a smile you've brought me too. I agree, I blog for many of the same reasons. I know that a lot of people don't share my interests in life and I'm okay with that, I just want to document MY life. How I see it and feel it. Although sometimes I have to edit myself so that I can encourage myself to be happier. Your blog has been a blessing, so go forth and blog for yourself, and for those of us who laugh at your posts, and even sometimes almost cry. This is real life.

Sis. Sabriena said...

I always enjoy your posts. I really don't see why anybody wouldn't. I'm certainly glad that you aren't going to just stop posting altogether. I also blog for myself. Sometimes I especially have a message for everybody else, but then too, it is a message for my future self! When you make the three ring binder, please let me see it too! After all, even if not carnally, I am Spiritually your family - and surely you weren't saying that you are only writing about your carnal family? I've seen posts about your many brothers and sisters too, so I know you're not! If you don't let me see the three ring binder from time to time, then be warned: I will read your blog, even if you stop blogging! I will read all of your posts! They are such an encouragement!

Laura said...

I love your blog! :-)

Jerelene said...

I can't imagine why anyone would have anything mean or negative to say about anything you write..that's just terrible:(
I've read your page for a long time now and I always feel happy and uplifted after reading what you've had to say..I guess in this sinful world we live in that there is always going to be someone mean out there..I've not experienced that yet and hope not too! Keep bloggin'....there are some of us who would be so sad not to read your page :) Love, Jerelene

kristarellalynch said...

Your Blog always make me smile Trina....God Bless you!