Monday, October 29, 2007

He Heard Me

I'm always a little concerned about my life. A "little" is a mild exaggeration. I think about my standing with the Lord all the time, and THEN I worry. I know that God is merciful, generous, and righteous. He has showed himself again and again in my life in many ways, so I feel like I know Him, as much as I can. I want to know Him better and better though, and the only thing standing in my way is me.

I know He is always here. Whenever I call out to Him I am confident He hears me. What a privilege. What an honor. It humbles me. I am going to take advantage of this great gift. If I could go before a grand king of this world, and I knew that he would always be fair, just, and merciful how many times would I take advantage of that? All the time. Isn't our Heavenly Father far grander and more powerful? Nothing stands in His way. What is even more wonderful about God is that I can do it in private. I can air my dirty laundry before him and no one else has to know. I can cry the ugly cry in the secret of my bedroom, then wipe my face, and be up and about taking care of my household, with no one the wiser, but the Lord and I. Wow, who else can do that for you?

So, today, I woke up feeling a little lonely. I had battled earthly trials in my dreams, and felt when I woke that I hadn't slept at all. I went downstairs hoping to shake it, but after a while I realized that I hadn't taken any of my cares to the Lord. The boys were all busy at the table buried in their schoolwork, therefore I went upstairs to humbly talk to God. I know He heard me. No tremors came from the sky. The room wasn't filled with His illuminous white light. So how do I know? I felt that burden lifted from me. I felt He heard me. Have you ever talked to someone about something,(mostly it's been my husband), and when you were done talking about your concerns you felt HEARD. You felt like things were going to be better. Sometimes I worry after I have done such a conversation with Den that it may have weakened him, even though I have felt improved. However, with the Lord I never worry about that. I know that He is strong enough to take my burdens and really do something about them. What a relief. What a gift to be able to fall down upon my knees before his mighty throne and speak to the most high God. I can't truly explain my gratitude, but God knows, and that is all that matters.

6 comments:

Mrs.Martin said...

Trina... I think that is the key to having peace after prayer to the Lord. Is simply believing He heard you... And... you believe He cares... And... will take care of it, in His way... and you also just BELIEVE. Then there is peace after prayer. I enjoyed your post Sis.

Mom of 3, Aunt of 13 said...

The Lord is sooo good. One time Travis and I were talking about other people and how they could do things better then they were. Then I got to thinking of my short comings and how much bigger they were than the ones we'd been talking about. We got down and prayed about it. The Lord has not led us to talk to the other people about their problems, we have however been working on ours, and seeing an improvement in the other people. Or maybe our problems are so big in comparison that theirs don't seem as bad. LOL

marykathryn said...

Oh Trina, again you have spoken beautifully. It is such a sweet gift to be able to turn all your cares to the Lord and know He is listening and understanding. In this life we have troubles and trials, but the Lord Does know all and even in the depths of our heart he knows the whispers that realm there...Hope you can find some comfort..My prayers are with you!!

Jules said...

It is amazing how you get the feeling that you have been heard, and what an honor to know it is by the CREATOR of EVERYTHING. What an honor!

Beth said...

Trina,
Thank you for this reminder. It seems like when I am having a hard day I just wait for Joe to come home and then I unload on him. Then he talks with me and always gives me words on encouragement and I do always feel better. But like you said I always feel bad the I have made it harder for him. Sometimes even in the greatest of trial I just forget to stop and talk to the Lord about it. Some days I feel like I should be talking to him all day long just to help me get through the day and get my mind in the right place. Thank you for the reminder of the power of prayer and the comfort it can bring you.

Tish said...

It is so wonderful to be heard by our God. He is so good and his peace is so wonderful. I find that I don't have enough conversations like this with God. My life is very busy, but I should take more time for it. I always feel better after pouring my burdens out to the Lord.