I was sitting on the floor playing with Roman this evening, and I felt compelled to say out loud, "Thank you God for my Roman." I am so surprised to see how much he is learning and growing every day. He is even wanting to feed himself with a spoon. No more mama feedings for this little man. I love to see him gaining independence, but its surprising at the same time.
I sat and watched him play for a good 45 minutes. Just watching him, jibbering with him, just being part of the moment, and he was eating it up. I have to admit, so was I, after all, I know how fleeting these moments are. There are times when I am watching him and I try to think back on River and Isaiah, when they were at that age and its pretty fuzzy. I don't remember very many details at that phase of their life. How quickly we forget, and knowing this makes me try that much harder to just be in the moment more.
River and Isaiah headed off to Tacoma to the State Tournament, and it seems to be more of the norm to have them gone on weekends anymore. They are at the age where they get invited to go a lot of places, and they don't NEED mom and dad to attend, like not so long ago. I'm thrilled with it, yet I also recognize the fact that they are gaining their independence faster than my mind can catch up with.
Levi is about to turn 12, in exactly 7 days. This is a pretty big deal for him. I asked him what he wanted for his birthday, and instead of him saying he needed to go to the toy section, he asked me for an Itunes card to make his own cd. What? No more legos? What happened to my baby?
Earlier today, Abram asked me if he knew how to read. I reassured him that he was at the beginning phases. He said that he thought he was, but he wanted to make sure. I remember teaching Levi how to read, not long ago, and how so many doors began to open in his mind once he could read signs, as we drove down the road. That is where my Abram is, at the threshold of new beginnings as well.
I can celebrate all of these new beginnings, but with age comes wisdom. Wisdom is a good thing, and one that I seek the Lord for continuously, but the bible says that with wisdom comes sorrow. What does that mean to me? It means that I have a better understanding of change and what that brings with it. Its a wonderful thing to see in my children, that they are starting to sprout their wings. I am so thankful, everyday, for their intelligence and desire to be on their own with each ones age appropriate benchmark, but I also know that my life will be dramatically different without each one in my daily life. I guess that is what being a mother is all about. Raising your children up in the nurture and admonition of the Lord, and watching them prosper independently in it. Thank you God for these beautiful moments in my life, and helping me to recognize and savor them.