Wednesday, March 01, 2006

I'm gonna miss them!


River and Isaiah went with a friend on a 9 hour trip to see my Mom. River is almost 16, Isaiah is almost 14, and they went with an 18 year old friend. So basically a bunch of teenagers. They are all very good kids though, and since my Mom lost her Dad this month, they thought it would be neat to head down and spend Wednesday through Sunday with her. My mom is thrilled.

So when I got up this morning the boys had already left. They wanted to get an early start, so we said all of our goodbyes and gave our warnings to be careful the night before. Boy the house was quieter. Two less boys running around doing their chores, eating their breakfast, and talking about what their plans would be after schoolwork. You'd think I wouldn't notice having 3 still here, or that I would be glad for the peace, but it just made me reflect. What will life be like someday without all of these boys? I will confess....last night after telling the boys goodnight, I was putting Roman down for bed, Dennis was on the computer, and tears began to fall. I was in quiet contemplation with my tears when Den pivoted in his chair and looked at me and asked, "Are you crying?" I smiled, and just as suprised as he, said, "Yes." He warmly smiled at me and said,"Our boys are growing up aren't they?" I just let out a sigh. However he put it into perspective by saying, "This is what we taught them Trina. Enjoy the fruits of our labor." I agreed with a nodd. However, I still thought where does the time go?

One of the reasons for homeschooling our boys is to teach them independence and to have amazing hearts towards the Lord. To show them what real life is all about. I have taught them how to cook( and let me just brag when I say that they can make a MEAN breakfast.) Dennis has given them projects to do so that they can learn, "How things work". We have instilled in them to think of others feelings and to begin seeking the Lord in all that they do. So they decided to go and spend some time with my Mom, and enjoy some other children from our church down there. Somehow though its difficult seeing them begin to set out on their own lives, but I guess thats what being a parent is all about. Instilling values, knowledge, and independence in your children and then hoping and praying to God that they are successful in all that they do. So today I miss them, but I will keep myself busy with my other three boys. I will pray for a safe journey for them, and know that they aren't missing me at all, because they are having a ball.

8 comments:

Beth said...

Hi Trina,
Well it is hard for me to relate to how you felt since Luke is still so little. But I do think about the future and what it will feel like when I can't control everything he does and be right by his everywhere he goes, and sometimes it scares me a little. But that is were prayer comes in. Now I can relate to River and Isaiah. I remember when I was there age. All I wanted to do was go places and spend time with my friends and just be doing something as long as it wasn't at home. Not that I didn't like home it was just fun be on the go. But the other night I was feeling sad about this, thinking about it from my mom's perspective. I took for granted the time we had together..not realizing that after I left the house (for good) that I wasn't coming back. Sometimes I miss the times when me and my mom would go out and have lunch together at the Super Stop or just hang out half the night watching TV and just talking. But when you are a teen you don't think about those things.

Nicki said...

Trina,
My face is soaked in tears once again this morning. Your words resonate in my heart because this is something that I often think on. They've been given to us for only a short time. I will miss them when they are gone and I pray that while I had them, I taught them well.

Trina said...

You know I remember being there age too. It really doesnt seem that long ago, and I also LOVED being on the go. I got married so young and my parents were kind of sad about it, but at the time I couldnt relate. Now I can understand more. I know that the boys arent missing me, but having a GREAT time, and truly I am happy for them. Teenagehood is a blast!

momto3blessings said...

I just did my makeup and you made me cry! I have those moments too when i think of how Joshua is growing up and he doesnt want to be home he wants to be busy with his friends all the time! I only have a couple years left with him at home and they are flying by! I hope the boys have a safe trip and have a blast.

Kim said...

Your boys sound like sweethearts. I pray I can raise mine to turn well, too.

Mother-of-Hope said...

Trina, I almost cried reading this! I know how you feel, even though my DD is only 10 (soon to be 11). She has changed SO much in the last month. And I know that there are MANY more changes in store. I just pray that I can teach her everything she needs to know in time.

Hope everyone is feeling better at your house. :D

mavvric said...

Wow, very well written!! It sounds like you and Dennis have done an amazing job of raising your boys to be wonderful young men. You are the kind of mother that I want to be, and the kind that I wish I'd had!

MarylandMommy said...

Prayers for safe travel. I hope they have a great time!!!